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Preface: Time to Tell the Truth
There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you. ― Maya Angelou And yet, it occurs to me now that we can never run with our lies indefinitely. Sooner or later we are forced to confront their darkness. We can choose the when, not the if. And the
Part 1: A Personal Polemology: Three Vignettes from a Decade-Long Holy War
You say that I showed you the light, but all it did in the end was make the dark feel darker than before. — Lucy Dacus How wonderful to be hidden, how terrible not to be found. — D.W. Winnicott ⚠️CONTENT WARNING: (Mention of Homophobia, Suicide, Conversion Therapy, Religious Trauma). What
Part 2: Disclosures and Decisions
Do I dare Disturb the universe — T.S. Elliot I want to be two people at once. One runs away. ― Peter Heller I remember the lingering smell of birthday candle smoke that arose above the plate of two-tiered confection before me and being encircled by the bright smiles and eyes
Part 3: Henri and Hope
Doubt is the friend of questions, and doubt is the teacher of truth. — Padrig O’Tauma And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. — Anaïs Nin I remember exactly where I was when I finished Michael
Part 4: Buses and Byes
Come, my friends, ’Tis not too late to seek a newer world. — Alfred Lord Tennyson This process of healing involves leaving what feels familiar, even if unpleasant, and venturing into an experience that feels foreign, awkward, and frightening. — Alice Miller I walked out to where the buses seemed to be
Part 5: Quarantine and Connections
The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance. — Alan Watts We are all travelers in the wilderness of this world, and the best we can find in our travels is an honest friend. — Robert Louis Stevenson I
Part 6: Foreign and Familiar
You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith and hope. ― Thomas Merton If we are open only to discoveries
Part 7: The Wall and its Doorway
Faith, on the other hand, is an unreserved opening of the mind to the truth, whatever it may turn out to be. Faith has no preconceptions; it is a plunge into the unknown. — Alan Watts Turning and turning in the widening gyre The falcon cannot hear the falconer; Things fall
Part 8: The Beauty and the Between
No one can heal by maintaining or fostering illusion. — Alice Miller I profess the uncertain with gratitude. … the almost untenable premise that between counting one and two nothing is lost. — Jane Hirschfeld I sat on a train, it’s windows wide and panoramic. I remember thinking it felt like some
Part 9: From the Moral to the Mystical
The Christian of the future will be a mystic, or will not exist at all. ― Karl Rahner For Christian leadership to be truly fruitful in the future, a movement from the moral to the mystical is required. – Henri Nouwen Somewhere beyond right and wrong, there is a garden. I will
Part 10: Theologian Turned Timothy
I crawled out the window and ran into the woods. I had to make up all the words myself. The way they taste, the way they sound in the air. I passed through the narrow gate, stumbled in, stumbled around for awhile, and stumbled back out. I made this place
Part 11: Participating in the Paradox
It’s so much easier to embrace absolutes than to suffer reality. — Anne Lemott Everything begins in mysticism and ends in politics. — Charles Péguy The best political, social, and spiritual work we can do is withdraw the projection of our shadow onto others. — Carl Jung I laugh when I hear
Part 12: Beyond Belonging
What we call the beginning is often the end And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from. — T.S. Elliot According to Master Linji the miracle is not to walk on water or in thin air, but to walk on Earth.
Epilogue: A Word to Readers
For one reason or the other, you’ve read Yielding to Yes – and you’ve now reached its end. The question is: What now? Where to go from here? I’d like to offer a brief closing word to a few specific readers: the Christian, the Queer person (and/or the
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